I was awake quite early this morning. Being Sunday morning, I wanted to be able to watch the Zoom service from my old Ward in Chester. I do that most Sunday's if I can. That way I am fed with spiritual nourishment twice on Sunday mornings. It has been a real God-send to me at this particular time in my life, and over these past months. In a way I will be sad when I can't do this anymore, even though that will mean that the Pandemic has ended and life has returned to normal.
I just watch it on my iPad. I lay there in my bed with the headphones on and I watch and listen to the talks. What a special comfort it is to me as I watch, seeing and hearing people who were such a huge part of my life over the past 11 years, and who made a huge difference in my life, helping ultimately to shape the person I am now.
The people who float in and out of your life have a lot to do with your personal growth and who you become, and they surely did.
After the service was finished, I lay there for a few minutes. There is no curtain on the window in my bedroom. My sister and Dan had been working at putting in new windows in the Autumn of last year and so they are not quite finished. The top of the window is bare and the bottom is covered with brown paper to keep out the light.
Plenty of light comes through the top part of the window however. At night, when the skies are clear I can look out the top of the window as I lay there and see hundreds of twinkling stars. Sometimes I can even see the moon as it moves across the sky . . . the branches of the trees that are outside that part of the house silhouetted dark against its brightness . . . the moon creating a special glow in my room.
This morning as I lay there I noted that there was a beautiful pattern of light and shadow on the wall at the end of my bed from those same tree branches, silhouetted against the brightness of the rising sun. It was pretty to watch, flickering and moving slightly in the light wind outside. Light and shadow . . . it brought a special joy and warmth to my heart and mind, just as the speakers I had just listened to had.
Our lives are filled with light and shadows . . . influencing us, painting our souls alternately with whatever it is they bring to us, or what we choose to take from or see from the ways that the light and shadows have touched us. I believe that we all have the ability to be guided in our lives if we can just take small steps in following the goodness that is within us and the light and understanding we receive from God.
At some point we have all felt that we were inspired, directed, or uplifted by a guiding thought, a sudden crystal clearer understanding, or other experience which we feel are from a greater power outside of ourselves. You can call it God, or whatever it is you choose to believe is where you draw your strength or inspiration from. Our "a-hah" moments . . .
There can be no light without shadow. It is the shadows which help us to discern or to see the light. They may even help us to be able to focus better on the light in our lives.
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